Wednesday, January 29, 2014

ANXIETY: Profiteroles

I had an absolutely wonderful therapist on the NHS when I first got panic attacks.
I'm very grateful, and remember her often.

I got a new bass guitar! IT'S AWESOME!

Just thought the world should know.

ANXIETY: letter to myself

I used to write these a lot. They were good.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Anxiety: Smiling through it


A surprising thing about some of us people who deal with anxiety over years is that we may appear unusually calm, cheery and laid-back to others. Sometimes we actually ARE calm, especially when everyone else is in a state of alarm - something is on fire? Tigers attack? That's just how we sometimes feel because it's Wednesday and we are alive. No big deal.

Sometimes, however, we actually are smiling through an anxiety attack.
After all, we are very used to them and would prefer if you did not make a fuss. 
Making a fuss makes the situation worse.

So if the anxious person in your life seems to just be smiling at the void and replies to every suggestion with "I am just fine", "if you like" and "I don't mind" they are probably dealing with an attack. - Don't mention it. Don't try to snap them out. Don't worry. Offer them a cup of tea, and go about business as usual. They'll tune back into the real world eventually.

We don't do this to make people worry about us. We are not lying to you or shutting you out. You really can't do anything to help, and you don't need to, neither. Just let us sit and smile a while. In a way, we actually are calm and happy, because we are dealing with things in the best way we have learned. - It's not poignant, deeply meaningful or weird. It's like holding in a sneeze. It's normal.

Friday, January 17, 2014

New heroes

the heroes meeting
I'm working on a new book... it's something I wrote years ago and am now finally getting around to illustrating.
Here are some bits of me working stuff out.


rough shading

things from the house... I didn't use all the colours.

digital colouring

Monday, January 13, 2014


We had a party at our house yesterday where 3kg of finest cheese were melted and eaten. It was a slow morning.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Follow Me

If you buy the Independent today you'll find a picture of me in it... it's part of a photography project of Travis Hodges showing people's connections on Twitter.
You can see the whole project online on his site...

Thursday, January 2, 2014